hoping for a miracle

Sorry people for being away so long. I needed a break on the net, it's because we've been dealing with something and we need your prayers. A few days ago as I dropped my hubby at work at the airport I suddenly started crying. weird, I know but at that moment right there I felt something hard inside and as I continued driving drops of tears streaked down my cheeks. why? my hubby hugged me and kissed me, he didn't do nothing to me that made me cry... I wonder why? I asked.

That night as I went home, I freshened up quickly coz I was so tired from work, I saw my mom sitting down besides my brother's bed. as soon as I went inside the bathroom I heard her say "why?" in a faint voice. I continued washing my face and changed into my house clothes, my heart kept on beating faster than ever. When I came out I heard my brother's explanation. according to the doctor, the lump on his shoulder was the same thing as the first one on his groin. It's been a year since he first came here, he completed his chemotheraphy and now we are so shocked to hear the awful news. the cancer came back. I talked to doctor the next day on the phone, according to her The bump came back and it was the same thing, it's a bad sign and what they can do is give radiation and chemo again, but that's only going to make him miserable, he won't be able to survive. They weren't sure up to when. me and my mom cried hard. the next day I talked to hubby about it, but I am so lucky to have a husband like him. So full of confidence, he told me not to cry, but to be strong. Do not lose hope in God, Whatever God's plans for my brother we shall respect that if that is his destiny. We did start to forget about my brother dying. According to hubby, The fight is not over yet.

I just hope that the bump will not continue anymore, my brother is a good person, he doesn't deserve to have this. I want him to experience a normal life, have his own family, have kids of his own. Grow old with the rest of us... So please, friends We are asking for your prayers... Our whole life we've experienced never ending trials, and never we gave up on any of them. Thank You, God for the blessings and trials in our lives, for without them we wouldn't be as stronger as we are right now. I also thank hubby for being there always and never giving up on me, after talking to me I felt so much better, especially after praying to God. The next night I slept well... I love you, mahal... I love you so much.

Sorry for being so emotional. I am going to bloghop a lil bit later, I missed a lot of my online sisters, I promise to visit you guys later. I want to change the look of this site, I am kinda getting tired of the cutesy-candy look, I want something simple and cozy feeling. and boy, I sure miss scrapping! but I don't have the creative juices to do so... God bless to all!

xoxo